NB: I wrote this post at the beginning of the week, and almost deleted it because I try to keep things positive here on Middle Aged Mama. There’s enough negativity in the world without me adding to it!
But I’ve decided to hit publish in the interests of “keeping it real”. Even happy little bunnies like me have their bad days, and Monday was definitely one of them …
Most of the time? I’m a bright and optimistic person (you can read more about my philosophy of life, here).
Forget the glass half full scenario – the glass is ALWAYS full when you think of it – of water, and air!
But to be honest? Life’s a bit sh** at the moment.
Things that Make Me Go Meh
Everything just feels a bit “meh”. I can’t put my finger on the exact cause of my attack of the blahs, but it seems every way my mind goes, things are gloomy and miserable. For example …
- We’ve had a house guest the last few months. It doesn’t matter how lovely or helpful they might (or might not) be, it becomes a burden after a while. Looking forward to having our own space and privacy back again …
- As a result I’ve had to move my office into our bedroom, which is not ideal.
- I’m tired of the short winter days, and the lack of sun in my temporary office.
- Despite enjoying my walks, I’m not losing any weight.
- Work’s a bit blah at the moment. I’m grateful for my retainer clients, but I also have half a dozen clients ABOUT to pay deposits and get me to work on projects … but I feel like I’m waiting, waiting, waiting. Of course you know what will happen – they will all do it at the same time and then I will be madly busy!
- Not surprisingly, this means I’m not feeling terribly motivated, which includes writing here on the blog … hence the “meh” edition.
- Some days it feels like I work so hard and I wonder what for?
- I don’t know what to do / get / arrange for the hubster’s 50th birthday next month. He always spoils me so much, it almost cripples me when it comes time to do the same for him! He insists that it’s not that big a deal and that I shouldn’t fret, but I still do.
- Longing for a holiday or break or something to look forward to instead of work, work, work …
- Tired of keeping up with all that’s involved in running a household, cooking, cleaning etc even if hubby is a champion at grocery shopping and pitching in.
The end result? I just want to curl up in bed and stay there!
Hubby says maybe I just need to take a “sickie” … LOL not something I do these days unless I’m really ill. I love my work and being my own boss, and because I work from home I don’t have to worry about infecting others if I have a cold – so you know I’m REALLY sick if I can’t work nowadays!
Maybe it’s hormones. Maybe I just need some quality time with my Bear. Maybe I’m just tired after helping Miss 21 shift house on the weekend. Who knows.
And once I’m feeling better I’ll probably just delete this post, as I hate being a negative Nellie.
MEH.
POSTSCRIPT: Yup, definitely hormones … I’ve had that telltale headache this week (that’s the only sign I get since my hysterectomy!).
The good news: I was back to my usual resilient, happy self the next day. Oh, and a couple of those “almost” clients have signed up, which is worth celebrating! This week is clearly ending a lot better than it started.
How’s your week been?!