Have you ever stopped to wonder “What if?” about your life – and how things could have turned out very differently?
I know that it’s a thought that occasionally crosses my mind, usually in relation to certain pivotal moments. If you’ve ever seen the movie Sliding Doors, you will know what I mean!
Here are some of the “what if” questions I’ve asked myself over the years …
What if … I’d had a “normal” childhood, instead of growing up with a mother hell bent on destroying everyone around her? Would I have done better at school? Could I have studied journalism at university, and become the next Ita Buttrose, or maybe given Mia Freedman a run for her money?
What if … I’d run away from home as a teenager, like I yearned to do?
What if … I hadn’t had three younger siblings to look after? Yup, probably would have been on the streets.
What if … I hadn’t broken off my first engagement? I think I can say, with 100% certainty, that I would now be divorced.
What if … I’d found a teaching job straight out of college, and never worked as a clerk in the public service? I would never have met my hubster!
What if … when I did get that public service job, they’d placed me in the Department of Justice instead of the Superannuation Office, which was the other alternative? Again, I would never have met my Bear!
What if … I hadn’t quit teaching. What if I’d stuck it out? Would I ever have grown to love it?
What if … I hadn’t recognised I had a problem, and never sought out help for my chronic depression? Would I still be here? Would our marriage have survived?
What if … we’d kept our kids at the private school they started off at? Would it have made much of a difference to their lives? #parentingregrets
What if … we’d had another child?
What if … they hadn’t been able to revive me after my near death experience? VERY thankful I am still here – I hate to think of how awful it would have been for the hubster and my two kidlets have coped?
What if … we hadn’t bought this house from our landlords back in 2010? Where would we be living now?
What if … I wasn’t made redundant in 2012? I was stagnating there – would I be brain dead by now LOL?
What if … I’d gotten a job instead of starting my own business after my redundancy? Bet I wouldn’t be loving life half as much!
What if … I’d never started this blog?!
What if … I found fame and fortune as a blogger (hey I can dream!)?
What do you think of as the biggest “what if” moment in your life?